Pandemic Discoveries

Pandemics come like the guests which you do not like much and moreover they have now come to stay at your home. It has been almost two months of lock-down and as any other human being I was having a limit to free time. Man is such irritating in his nature that at one time he longs for something and when he gets plenty of it, he still gets bothered. Same was happening to me when my mind could not find anything to do, it had been enough being in the comfort zone. 

At first the lock-down looked like if it could be handled by sleeping and checking all social apps, but yet I was wrong another time in my life,as usual, LOL! Anyway, so my mind was getting burdened with everything being closed in markets, empty roads, watching those social sites all day and even worse was that sleep would never be a friend to me that it would come and sit there with me for sometime. Many days, like almost the first month passed like that, I am not shy to tell how slow I am while progressing and then you see there is a point, a break through point which makes you realize that what were you even doing all these days, just existing like a dead. 

                  

                                                                                        

Although in this first month I was doing a bit work of like surfing new things and finding academics knowledge but that was way boring and worst than scrolling apps. I used to open my laptop, surf a bit and then watch either a movie which I would not watch whole of it, even while watching the movie I would open my apps again and again, that just creates a weird kind of pressure on mind and I was really doing the best procrastination I could, believe me!

Two things started to catch up my attention, one was exercise and other one was reading, well I chose the prior one and left it after 2 weeks but it turned out to be good, while I was planning to end that my mind was already craving something to do which could either help me escape the gloomy atmosphere of lock-down or help me kill time in some useful way.

Well now the breakthrough point was occurring, the procrastination in this particular option of reading links back to my life in university in many ways, because being an engineer and an average student I had to manage all my studies and projects to remain over average grade, well I succeeded to do that but it took much time of mine which I could invest in my interest of writing and reading, and when it was the chance to finally do this having too much free time, the human nature seeking comfortability with the speed of a released arrow. It took much time to get to that breakthrough point.

Now that the eyes opened and I realized I had been laying just here and there too much, my mind was ready to take a book and start reading. I could do that for a week and yet something felt missing like I was not doing what I supposed to do.  I sat with the book,a cool mind and what I could all hear was to write and start my own blog for it. At first it sounded weird to myself, blogging and me; I had never done that but who knew pandemic could help me out in discovering a new potential in myself. Therefore I made my own blog, since I was enjoying my work I realized to publish it on Instagram too and thus I created my page over there too (i.e @solo_writes_ ). With new work but old interest I figured out new ideas to make my work publish, create quotes and I chose a bit motivational and daily life topics for my blog because I liked them already.

All I had to do now was to take a step, the first step is always the hardest. The way I see it is that maybe my laziness and procrastination lead me directly to somewhere I should have imagined to be earlier. I rediscovered myself although I had no intentions too. Life gives you chances again and again, so we should better keep our eyes open and grab them.

I wrote all this because I myself never imagined that lockdown could be so disturbing to one's mind, the first thought for lockdown was I could have immense time to be free of daily routine work but it turned out to be something else. Mind gets a bit anxious while being in a loophole, doing same things again and again, this may even lead to depression, so to escape this anxiety just speak to yourself and choose an activity that best suits you, it might be video games, swimming, reading,writing or anything else. It can help keep your mind active and in a loop of interest where it keeps in illusion of fun and excitement 

This is how pandemic has changed one aspects of my life. Remember your only limit is you and you are the best explorer of yourself. The hardest you could find is the first radical step,the rest becomes history. I hope that you can discover yourself too and escape from the gloomy side to a sunshine one.